So... About Positivity.

I created this blog in an attempt to express my positive thoughts and feelings, as I have them. I wanted it to be a place I could turn to when life got tough, as a lighthouse of sorts, to guide me back to positive thinking. In a way it is that. But lately I have realized that I no longer want to segregate my emotions into compartments.

I am partly positive, happy, in love with the simple and beautiful things in life. Ready to change and grow and love. Being positive is a healthy thing. It allows us to train our brains to see blessings instead of curses, and it's actually healthy for your physical body too!

But I am also partly negative. Dark, moody, cynical, and aware of every ugly thing this world holds. It's maybe my bipolar disorder that allows me to see both sides of life. But regardless- it's a valid part of my existence, and I choose to acknowledge it when need be.

Acknowledging the negative in your life is just as much of a necessity, I think. When I am always trying to avoid negative thoughts, I am stifling a part of myself. It builds and builds and becomes an elephant in the room! It also explodes sometimes and throws me into a long depressed state. I have learned that if I slow down and allow all of my feelings to have their moment of focus (positive and negative!), that I am a much more relaxed and balanced individual. It's just better for me.

Perhaps I will start making not only strictly positive entries here, but also the negative. I'll change it to something more realistic, more balanced. It seems healthier. More genuine. More me.